The important thing about life is to understand what comes with it. Trust issues are not the only things that prevent us from being exposed to the true beauty of life, but it deals with a huge portion of what life can be examined as. It deals with people losing your trust as well as being bored with the usual things you see in your everyday life. Life is meant to do crazy things. Life is all about being able to express yourself in this big ball of earth that we all live in. Love is a huge weight that can hold you down but it is a certain weight that you are willing to carry for miles and miles. Keep in mind that whenever you feel stressed or worried about a certain situation, it can easily be handled if you think that nothing bad can happen from the outcome of this tragic challenge. It takes a lot to make music. It takes a lot to make a movie. It deals with being creative and having the anxiety that the world might not accept it, but the main idea coming off those craniums of yours should be questioning the fact that it doesn’t matter if others like it…it’s mainly your idea and it brings joy to yourself. The problem with that is that society now has the image of being able to manipulate us to actually think in the eyes of others because it mainly is the gateway to actually becoming famous or popular. Now many arguments can justify the fact that it is not all about becoming famous and popular which is true, but how do you expect to make it in life without those two qualities…let alone one. It’s really hard because we live in a world that is all about popularity and for those who fight against it…kudos because you are very tough and can make anything a fun experience because of the fact that you were born but the truth of the fact is…we all need to be a bit popular to one thing and one thing only….this earth, The concept of having trust issues came from a singer named Drake. I have my iPod playing right now and it’s freaky how one little song can open my mind to the many different issues we have in this world as well as referring to myself in the process. We all deserve to be popular and those who are worked hard and some haven’t….we just got the short end of the stick. But it’s ok because eventually….the size of the stick won’t matter…but how well you can stick it in the earth and make something out of yourself. The funny thing about writing is that you can simply talk about anything and have nothing to worry about. I guess in a way it is some type of stress reliever….it’s a way to express someone without telling them your name J it’ exciting and very mysterious J life will soon be heard by those who keep crying for change and when that day comes, life will truly be perfect yet waiting for some more changes demanded by the one populated individual in this sphere of population. I can’t wait J. I want fans so bad so I can be able to talk to them. You know like read what they have to say and then be able to relate or just give em a good “hey…that was sick” haha sick referring to an awesome response. I dnt need fame. I need people. I need love and support while being hidden in the shadows of the screaming population of change J
Listening to dubstep music and trippin out an lovin it because of it’s high frequency bass waves !!!!! Oh m god im bored :). BLOOMINGFLOWER!!!!! Save me!!!!!!!!
Neve have I answered a call from a stranger who cares….there’s a first for everything. Intriguing people this world has. Never thought there was love out there. Great experience and sharing it with a wonderful girl who is really unique and in love. Love her attitude towards life and RELIGION :). Hope to spend time with her tomorrow :)
Life is great. Love is not anywhere near. Time is shrinking. Hatred is disappearing. Joy is no longer in my life. Everything is BLAH right now :)
It’s been an amazing day…I have lived through many harsh obstacles in my brothers life….and I’m glad to say that what I’m about to say isn’t bad news :)…
MY BROTHER IS GETTING MARRIED!!!!! I’ve never thought the day would come and I knoe that no matter what…I will always be there for him and I will never leave him. I better be his best man :) I love how we all are together and it feels good to knoe ur whole family is there with you sharing the love and joy
Well I’m just here with my family and it’s quite a memorable day. I love how all of my cuzins are here with me because I miss them completely and I’m glad they are safe and here with me. My brother Kenny is here from San Antonio and I am glad that his girlfriend and her parents and sister are here with me….they make me extremely happy and I’m glad to be in their presence :D. I’m so glad to knoe everyone I care about is safe and with me. I love all of you guys and I cnt wait to be with my brother till Tuesday. Sadly Eileen and Kat are leaving Sunday :/ I’ll miss you guys so much.
Now what has it come to??? It has come to an endless desire to become one thing at a time. Whether it’s helping someone….giving someone pleasure….making someone laugh….or even doing them a favor….it ends up being where u have no idea who u are anymore. It has come to a point in time where the racetrack has lost it’s grip and the only chance of pressing the breaks is to call for my undying fate to what I need in my life. People always try to change me and tell me what to do and don’t give me the satisfaction to become my own person….live my own life :/ I’m too busy always trying to please everyone that it is getting difficult to find a way to please myself. As I speak, I love a woman who loves a child who loves himself more than his unworthy girlfriend. I feel it is then time to take a stand and destroy the child for all his immature wrong doings….time is on my side and if I get punished for fighting for what is right then I know that he who has created me is corrupt because my creator knew this was possible. There are too many treasures in my life that I just want to get rid of it and keep my one crown for myself and live as if I have all the riches in the world. I dnt need to be told what to do and I won’t tell others what to do as well. People have told me that i’ve inspired them…that I have made their dreams possible….that I am always able to put a smile on their face but consider the fact that I do not have a piece of what makes me have all those mutual feelings…..my onli miracle. Things that get me confused is banging on me like a drum and I cnt stop the beat from changing it’s rhythm….so I then have to beat louder just to cancel the agonizing pain that is brought upon me…..never have I sacrificed anything for someone else to an extent where it has meant anything….
I am now willing to throw everything out the window just to be in her arms and be able to lift her from all the evil that is being attacked on her :/.
Life will never be clear to me. I have all my life to find love…I need to wait which is what I plan to do but if it comes to a point where I am able to protect anyone from pain….I will not wait….I will take action…make a difference in their life and suffer the dire consequences that are being followed with my actions. I wish my life was all about polygamy because there is multiple woman I would love to be forever happy with and want to sleep with them at night and fall asleep in their arms. :/
Time will onli tell what kind of life I will live in the future….the girl that keeps me on my edge won’t even pay attention to me and the woman I have my eyes on no matter what…..has other guys going gaga over her and all I have to do is admire from afar…the worst thing is that I already know she likes a good friend of mine which is beyond disappointing….but like I’ve always said….as long as my treasures are joyful and happy…then I will also be content of that certain fact. Confusion is all that fills my head and at times I am unaware of what to do because of the fact that as every second goes by…the more I want to hold her.
